Ah.... it is SO good to be back in this state.  The mountains never far and many, many other fine reasons to be here mean that I'm happier, just generally.  

The move back with my storage went seamlessly.  I had excellent help both funding the move as well as physical help moving.  For all of these things and the folks involved, I am most thankful!  You know who you are. 

I got to see only a few good friends in Ohio while there, but the ones who made time for me really brightened up an otherwise typical Ohio time for me.  I don't do well there and am convinced I should not return unless absolutely necessary.  One of the really fine collaborations that occurred produced some spot on images of old school Hollywood glamour.  Thank you Glenn Pine for your stellar work and attention to detail!  Here are a few images from the shoot:

Glenn's site:
http://glennpinephotography.com/




In the past few days, I have had some professional, as well as personal, disappointments.  But I guess that's just part of what keeps things interesting... never knowing what may really go down... or not, as it were.  I'm the kind of person who likes to really delve into feelings, rough stuff as well as good, and get it all out, go to extremes to hopefully leave it behind quickly as possible.  Sometimes that means I'm kind of a bitch, which I can easily blame on my old calling requiring me to be firm handed.  

Disappointments can elicit recurring, obsessive responses from me at times.  I recently experienced this when I wasn't selected to be part of a bigger show that I kind of had my heart set on.  I had thought that one of my two submissions went exceedingly well with the theme of the show, but apparently not.  But see it's not just this show, it's part of a larger, more long lasting issue I've been dealing with for a long while now which is the problem of not getting booked.  People seems to really dig what I make, what I do with it and all that jazz.  I'm amicable and kind, and usually self contained having my own dressing room to go along with my MCS and special needs.  However, the number of people who actually hire me is completely disproportionate and I find myself performing only rarely.  It's gone on long enough that I've decided to not try to pursue finding shows as much now.  If asked, sure I'd LOVE to perform!!!  But otherwise, I think I'll be looking into producing a few shows here and there to create an environment in which I feel like I can express my creative needs.  I almost said I'd stop performing entirely, but it makes me too sad to keep thinking of that.  And I do get so excited when a show is coming up!  So I suppose needs must and I will find a way thru, around or over.

A good end to this post is that due to a few good friends, I do have a couple of shows coming up in Denver in October.  There may be one more opportunity but I'll not know about it for a few weeks yet.  So that is grand!