My decision is precipitated by the fact that it is nearly impossible for me to book myself into shows, particularly ones of the high caliber that I crave. Being overlooked so often gets to be too much and I react by being increasingly sensitive to the rejection and feeling bitter. The reason I began performing was simple: to gracefully show people the fun things I made and to see what my friends were doing with their creative endeavors. It's been quite a while since the fun to bullshit ratio has been balanced, so I'm simply going to stop.
The Golden Legends Challenge and the accompanying fundraising expectations were too much for me and I had to back out of that show. Honestly, I entered it hoping to be a protege - not a back up in case a protege drops out. I realized after I applied that I should have just submitted my signature act Queen B to the showcase, as that was what was wanted from me. This was yet another instance of my desires being set to the side, of me being told I was almost good enough, but not quite. The meaning I took away was: we really just want the glowy EL Wire act that you took to festivals in 2014. Much as I wanted to follow through with the Golden Legends Challenge, my heart just wasn't it in when it came down the way it did.
I have two last performances, both with The FOX and both in Ohio. I find it very appropriate that my last shows are in my home state where it all began.
* The Midwest Burlesque & Rockabilly Weekend
June 1-4 2017
https://www.facebook.com/events/795168813966448/
* The 7th Annual Ohio Burlesque Festival
August 2-5 2017
https://www.facebook.com/events/1022160514499130/
AND THEN... I'm going to delve into totally new territory for me. But I can't blow the top off the news until I'm ready and already doing it.
Stay tuned....
